Score = 20

I'm almost 20 =] No more teens, no more naivety. Time to start taking responsibility of my life and to leave childish ways behind me.

A quarter (hopefully) of my life is gone now, what will the next season of life hold?

A bit...

...tired...

...disappointed in myself...

...lonely...

...in need of God...

...in need of Love...

...hungry...

Wanting a bit more out of life.

Perfection

I notice that I don't do certain things because I want them to be done right.  Like, for instance, happy birthdays.  I don't usually facebook happy birthday because I think that it seems insincere, the easy way out.  I would rather call them, or say happy birthday in person.  But then I forget that I usually won't see them, and when I actually do see them, 2/3 times I just forget that it's their birthday.  And I forget that I feel happier when I get birthday wishes on my birthday.  

I suffer very strongly from this false perfectionism.  Because I want things to be done in the best way possible, and when i find myself unable to do that best, I give up completely.  

Maybe if I invested a little more time into the little things in life... A happier smile here, a bigger welcome there... someone might be blessed a little more.  And maybe they can bless another person more too. 

Faith

信

This is the character for all the words related to faith.  In Japanese, it's incorporated into the words: faith, belief, to believe, etc.  It's made up of two parts.  To the left, is the radical for person, 人.  To the right, the radical for speak, 言.  

Faith, a man who speaks.  Because what good is faith when you just keep it in, all to yourself?  Faith is not real until it is lived out and shared.  We all know the passage that says "In the same way, faith by itself, if it is not accompanied by action, is dead." (James 2:17).  However, there is another passage in Philemon that says "I pray that you may be active in sharing your faith, so that you will have a full understanding of every good thing we have in Christ." (Philemon 6).  Not only does faith manifest itself in our actions, it is also good for us to gain a better understanding of what God has really done for us.  As we share, it becomes more real to us, and we begin to truly understand the awesome things God does in our lives.  We stop sharing, we stop remembering, and we begin to lose sight on the goodness of God.  

Talk.  Speak.  Man was meant to converse.  So whether with nonbelievers, or with fellow brothers and sisters, talk about God, and what he is doing.  

Japanese Project Test

先週の週末にソフトボール・トーナメントがありました。このトーナメントは毎年KCMをするトーナメントです。KCMはかんこくのクリスチャンのグループで、いつも一年に二度スポーツトーナメントをします。去年に私たちがかちました（Won）。トーナメントに大学がたくさん出ました。大学生はUSCとUCLAとUCSDとUCIとUCRから来ました。このトーナメントは八時から四時まででしたが、はじめからおわりまでたのしかったです。USC はチームが二つありました。USC AとUSC Bといいました。私はこのUSC Bチームにいました。

これはBちーむです。 

わたしたちはあまりつよくなかったです。UCIのチームが私たちにかちました。でも、プレーオフで

私たちはUCIにかちました。そのあとで、とてもうれしかったです。UCIにかつからじゅんけっしょう（Semifinals）に行けました。USC A もじゅんけっしょうに行きました。でも、USC AとUSC Bがまけました。私たちのUSC BはUCLA Bに２０たい０でまけました。とてもはずかしい（Embarassing）ですね。でも、だいじょうぶでした。でも、USC Aのじゅんけっしょう

のゲームはWorld Baseball Classicのけっしょうのようでした。USC Aはアウットが一ついりましたが、UCSD A のせんしゅはまんるいホームランをしました。ざんねんでしたね。でも、かたなかったですけど、たのしかったです。

この人は私じゃないですけど、私の名前がありますね。パクはたくさんある名前じゃないんですけど、トーナメントにパクさんがたくさにましたよ。

そして、これはUSCのKCMです。

Friends

I always have that wish, that all my friends could somehow meet each other, and become friends themselves.  I wish KCM friends could meet church friends, that STSM friends could meet USC friends, etc.  But I realized, for all of us who have accepted God's gift of love, we're going to have an eternity to spend with each other.  And then, in our glorified bodies, without awkwardness, we can really have true fellowship.  We'll have eternity to get to know each other, and to really love each other as we were meant to.  I can't wait for that.

Easter

God is Risen =]

The Gospel Message is amazing.