Friends

I always have that wish, that all my friends could somehow meet each other, and become friends themselves.  I wish KCM friends could meet church friends, that STSM friends could meet USC friends, etc.  But I realized, for all of us who have accepted God's gift of love, we're going to have an eternity to spend with each other.  And then, in our glorified bodies, without awkwardness, we can really have true fellowship.  We'll have eternity to get to know each other, and to really love each other as we were meant to.  I can't wait for that.

Easter

God is Risen =]

The Gospel Message is amazing.

It's been a month...

...I feel like this is a trend, with my blogs, with my journal.  Everytime I attempt to log my life, I end up recording about once a month.  

Which is better than never, I guess.  I realized that I haven't had one of those crazy bible reading moments in a while... the kind where you read a verse, and all of a sudden all of life's questions are answered.  Maybe it's because I don't seek it?  DT reading is awesome, and it keeps me accountable, but I realized that I'm depending on the schedule to find God in the word, instead of seeking him through the words.  

It's funny what people write in blogs.   They expect Nobody to read them, yet they expect Everyone to read them.  It's uncomfortable for a person to be reading over our shoulders as we type, yet we expose [some of] our secrets for the whole world to see.  I wish, the things that I would write in a blog, I could easily share with another person.  But blogging too much gets you used to monologuing; you forget the intricacies and profundity of a dialogue.  

It's interesting, isn't it, that we rate the conversations that we have, not based on the content of what we say, but on how we feel.  We seek intellectual, emotional, spiritual, etc etc  stimulation from the words we say and hear.  Maybe, if we seek, not the stimulation, but the words themselves, if we could truly listen to what a person has to say, then we could learn a lot more, and care a lot more.  Which actually brings me full circle, without me knowing it... hahah crazy!

Do I seek stimulation when I read the Bible?  Or do I seek GOD?

Do you care for the fun people, or do you love them?

Do You love emotion, or do You love GOD?

And so, there goes another, self-thought based blog.  Recalling verses has been hard to do lately, being out of touch with the bible.  I guess it's now time to get my sword, sharpen it, polish it, equip it...

CHR[l.o.v.e]IST - my new signature.  Don't just read it, think about it.  We love, but not by ourselves.  We love because Christ first loved us, and in his love we are able to love.  

Be in Christ!

-Joseph S Pak

There is thankfulness...

...And then there's clinginess.  I can be grateful for the lovely weather in Southern California, for the calm, safe, quiet atmosphere of the suburbs of Laguna, etc etc.  But if I'm not willing to let it go, it's an idol to me.  I should learn to love the things I have, but remember that keeping the good things in life is not all that important.  If God calls me away from everything I know and like, then so be it.  I should be willing to listen.  

Silver

It tarnishes.  I opened my drawer, and I realized that I had amassed quite a number of collectable spoons in the years that I had been collecting them.  I unfortunately had not found any in India =[ but, I still had a lot.  Buttt..... looking at all the silver plated ones, I saw that they were all black and yellow and blue!  =[ Stupid 7th grade me for forgetting that silver will eventually tarnish.  Even though I didn't notice it then, I for sure see it now...

gotta clean them up now

Caring is Sharing

...in each other's burdens and trials, etc etc.  I realize that I don't really care for people as much as I want to.  I've noticed it in the way I interact with people, and with the information that I remember about people.  I'm self seeking in all my relationships, wanting to have fun relationships, and making sure I meet the cool, fun, good looking people.  =[  I do it to make up for the lack of self confidence in myself.  I look down on others who I think are less than me because I feel like I'm worth it.  

Love is... 1 Corinthians 13.  That's where it's all at.  That's what love should be... and I'm nowhere near that.  I want to really love other people, and be excited for their presence.  I distance myself way to easily, but I just need to open myself up I guess.  

To care and to love, that's what I need to pray for.  

Time

It's so precious, and wasted so easily.  

I had forgotten what I was really going to say...